Wind Beneath my Wings

Yesterday was tough.  It was a long day at work.  It was a tough workout with Coach Kathleen.  It was a tough day of keeping to my diet (so freaking hungry & mad cravings).  Finally, it was a tough day of remembering why I'm doing this & that it will take some time.  Kathleen had to literally talk me off a ledge last night.  That ledge was a head-first dive in to a giant ice cream sundae.  You'll be pleased to know I didn't jump. 

I don't know what was my problem yesterday.  I completed my workout with Kathleen, going up in weight on many of the exercises (that's a plus!), burned 432 calories in 38 minutes of work, and was awarded a gift card at work for best exemplifying our goals.  Why wouldn't all those things equal a very pleased & proud me?  Ahhhh....the brain is a powerful thing.  Right now I think that the brain is my worst enemy. 

So, before I drove off to Wendy's to buy a triple bacon cheeseburger (honestly, that doesn't even sound appealing), fries, and a coke - I texted a few people that promised to be supports.  Today's blog is a thank you to them.  They were there in my darkest hour, and helped pull me up so that, at least, my head was above water.  I'm not drowning, but I'm not out of the water, yet.  I still have a lot of work to do.

First, to Sharon (the owner & my boss at Go Fitness):
    Thank you for taking time out of your busy evening to send me a supportive & informative message.  I know how hard you work and how late you leave.  I also know the stress you put yourself under for making goal each month, and how hard you've been working on these marketing plans.  Even with all of that, you took the time to respond, and tell me that this is the beginning.  To remind me that it will take about 4 - 6 weeks for my body to adjust.  You always ask me how things are going, encourage me when I'm working out, and congratulate me when I'm done.  It's nice to have a boss that truly cares about my well-being.

Second, to Kathleen (my kick-ass Coach): 
       You have so many clients, and you were still working last night when I texted, but you took the time out to respond to me.  You even searched for an article that specifically addressed my issues.  You printed it and were willing to bring it to me after work.  These are all signs of going above & beyond what you are paid to do.  It meant a lot to me that you would do this.  I need to remember that liver & muscles can hang on to water weight, which can be up to 10 - 13lbs total.  I didn't realize that at all.  I just thought that I should be losing weight instantly with all the hard work I've been putting in.  The article really opened my eyes.  It didn't completely alleviate my concerns (because I'm stubborn), but it helped tremendously.  Thank you!

Third, to Michael (the best boyfriend ever): 
    You are there...always.  You never let me down.  You are intuitive to my emotions & needs.  I don't know how you do it, but I thank you for it.  I know I'm not the easiest to deal with at times, but I do try.  Just a giant hug from you can set many things straight in the world.  Thank you.

Finally, to my Mom (the bestest woman in the world!):
    Every step of my entire life, you are there.  You have always encouraged me, always supported me, and always tried to keep my spirits up.  When you were struggling you tried not to let me see.  You set a great example to me.  I know I can talk to you about anything, and you never judge, you always just try to help.  You always remind me of how proud I've made you, and that you couldn't ask for a better daughter (even if I beg to differ at times).  Your unconditional love has inspired me to show the same to others.  Life lessons are hard to learn, but I am doing my best.  I love you - and am so lucky that you are my Mom.  Thank you!

"The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand, nor the kindly smile nor the joy of companionship; it is the spiritual inspiration that comes to one when he discovers that someone else believes in him and is willing to trust him."Ralph Waldo Emerson